Who am I?

It was the morning after a very intense mediation class, I was looking out the window watching the birds feed rather than get ready for work.

For some reason I questioned my identity. My immediate reaction was that I do not have one. This answer sparked an uncertainty but before any fear set in I had another answer come to me- I Just am.

A few years back I had read the book The Impersonal Life by Joseph Benner. This book was to do with the I Am concept.  At the time the book never fully resonated with me.

The answer I received that morning gave me an understanding for now.

If someone was asked to finish the sentence I am …? Whatever the answer is, it is some way they identify themselves.

We all seek an identity. Aspects of how we identify ourselves may be:

  • Occupation
  • Role within family
  • Gender and Sexual orientation
  • Personal attribute i.e. strong, beautiful, intelligent etc.
  • Religious beliefs
  • Spiritual beliefs
  • A sports person or fan of a sports team
  • Political views
  • Citizen of a country
  • Race

Another aspect of how we may identify ourselves is through a crisis that has been experienced. Examples could be a war veteran, cancer survivor, victim of a crime etc. These experiences may have been horrendous but labelling yourself with anything similar could potentially hold you in that energy.

Within the spiritual community people have adopted many labels for themselves too.

All these identities will individualise us as something special or different and/or include us within a group. Why do we need to do this? To feel special! Why do we need to feel special?

Our egos!

What if all these labels are just limitations we have placed upon ourselves?

I believe it’s far more than that. Could our egos be trying to prevent our connection to the universal consciousness?

As we go through life we can invest more in these ideas, ideals and identities. What if something made us question them. How would our egos react?

The breakdown of these ego aspects can cause what is known as the Dark Night of the Soul.  The Dark Night of the Soul is a term used to describe the dissolving of a perceived meaning in life and leaving a deep sense of futility.  This futility is similar to depression but isn’t.  It is important to realise that this stage is only temporary.

This can happen many times and after each time you are closer to your true self.

Rather than this process being difficult and painful, what if we actively dissolve our identities? Could we reach our true selves far quicker?

I am Mark –The Alchemist’s Journey

Spiritual Maturity

In popular Psychology there is an idea called Transactional Analysis. This was proposed by Eric Berne in 1957.

In Transactional Analysis behaviour and communication is generally from one of three states- Child, Adult and Parent. Often it is represented with this chart-

TA
Transactional Analysis
  • The Parent talks down to the Child
  • The Child talks back up to the Adult
  • Whereas Adults talk as equals.

While much is written on this topic, this is my takings on these ideas.

Child

  • Not taking responsibility
  • Victim mentality
  • Temper tantrums
  • Complaining of unfairness
  • Not embracing their own power

Parent

  • Controlling
  • Patronising
  • Dismissive
  • Judgmental

Adult

  • Treating others as equals
  • Embracing one’s own power and responsibility

Where these ideas become really interesting is if you apply these ideas from Transactional Analysis to spirituality.

How many people can say they have achieved Spiritual Maturity?

Think about all the common expressions we have. It’s God’s will, he cursed the heavens, for God’s sake and there are many more. We blame God for our problems! Would our actions fit that of the Child State?

Often we can feel victim to higher powers and this is reflected in how we speak about God especially from a religious view point. See the Lord’s Prayer below-

Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name. Your kingdom come. Your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread. And forgive us our sins, as we also have forgiven our debtors. And do not bring us to the time of trial, but rescue us from the evil one.

God is referred to as our father. If we were to use the Transactional Analysis for our relationship with God

  • God talks down to his Children
  • His Children talks back up to God in heaven.

We have been brought up to believe we lack power and cannot take responsibility for ourselves. Where is the God within us?

Is God to blame for how our lives are unfolding or should we take personal responsibility?

Is now the time to forgive ourselves for our mistakes and accept these as hard learnt lessons?

Should the aim of our spiritual practises be to embrace our personal power and work towards unity with God?

Every parent needs to let their children grow, while every child needs to mature into adulthood and when this happens they meet as equals.

 

Mark –The Alchemist’s Journey

May the Force be with you

Growing up in the 1980s I loved nothing more than Star Wars!

The first Star Wars film, Episode IV – A New Hope was released in 1977, followed by Episode V – The Empire Strikes Back in 1980. The final film in the Original Trilogy was Episode VI – Return of the Jedi and this was released in 1983. I was lucky to be old enough to see this one at the cinema.

These three films followed the journey of Luke Skywalker to becoming a Jedi Knight, defeating the evil Darth Vader and thus destroying the evil Galactic Empire.

The Jedi were a group of robed monk like warriors who used “The Force” for good and to maintain peace throughout the galaxy while Darth Vader and the Emperor used “The Force” for evil.

The Force was also introduced as a mystical energy field. Obi-Wan Kenobi explained the force to Luke Skywalker as:

“It’s an energy field created by all living things. It surrounds us and penetrates us; it binds the galaxy together.”

The Force is also referred to as the dark and light sides. The villainous Sith (Darth Vadar) draw on the dark side to act aggressively while the Jedi use the light side for defence and peace.  This is very similar to Yin and Yang or Duality.

The Force could be described as being similar to Prana, Ki or Chi.  Those who were sensitive to The Force had special, psychic abilities such as telekinesis, mind control, and extrasensory perception.

Like many other people my age, I grew up dreaming of having these abilities.  These three films have become part of our culture.  Star Wars is regularly referenced in many other films and TV programs.

My favourite Star Wars reference is from the film Human Traffic (1999). This film is about five friends, Jip, Lulu, Koop, Nina and Moff enjoying a weekend partying. While incredibly high on drugs Moff has the epiphany The Emperor… wants to conquer outer space. Yoda… wants to explore inner space.”

In 1999 the first of Prequel Trilogy, Episode I – The Phantom Menace was released. This was followed by Episode II – Attack of the Clones in 2002 and Episode III – Revenge of the Sith in 2006.

These three films were about the journey of Anakin Skywalker becoming a Jedi Knight, embracing his fear, descending to the Dark Side and finally his transformation into Darth Vader.

While the Prequel Trilogy in my opinion lacked the magic of the three Original Trilogy films, it also changed the overall plot of the six films. The complete story is now about Anakin Skywalker becoming a Jedi Knight, his transformation into Darth Vader, then re-embracing the Light Side and due to the love for his son sacrificing himself while killing the Emperor. His last breaths are spent as Anakin, looking at his son, Luke.

This is a very powerful example of love and forgiveness.

In 2015 Sequel trilogy started with Episode VII – The Force Awakens. In one of the trailers the first words were “there has been awakening. Have you felt it?”

At the time I was amazed by this! Recently I heard that a critical mass of people have spiritually awakened.  Once these people are fully awakened this will cause the awakening of the rest of the population. Essentially the Hundredth Monkey effect has occurred.

Could this be another example of life imitating art or is there a writer dropping hints?

Episode VIII – The Last Jedi is due to be released later this year and the first trailer is due anytime soon.

There are many theories on what will happen in the new film. One theory is that Rei or Ben Solo (Kylo Ren) will bring balance to The Force.  The Force would then be in unity!

Will the Star Wars universe be leaving duality?

If the Star Wars universe is leaving duality, will we soon be following too?

If we take the Human Traffic quote: The Emperor… wants to conquer outer space. Yoda… wants to explore inner space.” and we remove the Light and Dark side (duality) then outer space and inner space will be in unity!

May the Force be in Unity with you!

 

Mark –The Alchemist’s Journey

 

Team Humanity

When people work together, great feats can be achieved.

A group of people with a common goal or objective is known as a team.

Team members need to learn how to work together, help each other to better themselves and create a positive environment that allows everyone to flourish.

To survive, early people teamed together in tribes. The goal of the tribe would have been survival. This collective goal of survival would be everyone’s primary goal and their personal goals secondary.

Nowadays it seems people’s personal goals are their primary goals. Collective goals rarely exist. People may be part of a sports team, a work team and or other organisation but this team goal is only temporary.

Collective goals only seem to arise in times of need such as natural disasters or war. In the case of war, teams oppose each other.

What could we achieve if we united with each other and learnt to help one another?

Think what miracles could be achieved if we had global collective goals? Not ideals imposed on us by governments or religious groups.

Welcome to Team Humanity!

If you choose to be part of Team Humanity, the collective goals are:

  • To be in a state of internal peace and emotional freedom
  • To treat everyone as a team member and help them realize their true potential
  • To respect mother earth and all her inhabitants

This requires you to be consciously aware of your actions every minute of every day.

It’s your choice, so welcome!

Mark – The Alchemist’s Journey

The Limitations of Happiness 

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In the blog Anger is a Gift I called anger a temporary emotion. What if all emotions should be temporary even good emotions?

Recently I heard a Mysterious Universe podcast in which they talked about cultural differences regarding depression and expectations. They spoke about how in Western culture we have an expectation that we should be happy. According to this talk, in Russia and other cultures they are more accepting and understanding of depression and other low vibration emotions.

Due to the acceptance of these emotions and the lack of expectation of being happy, people can bounce back from depression quicker. This was due to not having the added issue of feeling like a failure because of the expectation we should be happy.

What if the expectation of being happy is the cause of our unhappiness?

If we live in duality and we strive for happiness, does this not leave us open for the polar opposite- sadness?

What if the goal of happiness limits us from achieving higher states of existence?

So if we are to replace happiness as the desired emotion, what should we replace it with?

Peace!

From my experience being in a state of peace is being free from emotions. Yes emotions occur but they are brief and pass quickly.

Peace is living in the present, experiencing a great connection and leaving duality.

I believe it’s time we all stop striving for happiness and give peace a chance

Mark- The Alchemist’s Journey